Wednesday, December 18, 2013
Saturday, March 23, 2013
As your Daddy and I wait to board the plane for our Dominican vacation, I find myself feeling conflicted. Excitement for a vacation with the love of my life and nervousness for leaving the other biggest blessing in my life. It has been so long since I have posted anything on my blog for you guys. Poor little Graham doesn’t have anything on here since he was a baby. It is obvious, as we left this morning, that you are my little baby still but also a little man with a big personality! I want you three to know what a blessing you are to your Daddy and I. I want you three to know how deeply we love you all. I want you three to know exactly what we love about you :)
My dearest Ellaina! Just writing that has left me smiling ear to ear thinking about your beautiful smile and the way your face lights up around everyone. You are such a shining star with the most beautiful heart. Your thoughtfulness and spunk are contagious. I love the way you love life and everyone around you. Always up for fun and try to help everyone around you do the same. You have a way of making people feel so loved. I am incredibly proud of you every day and am enjoying your journey…as a passenger. Let’s face it, you are in the driver’s seat of your life and Daddy and I are just tapping our break from time to time. Honestly, I wouldn’t have it any other way. You are such a blessing to us, your brothers and everyone around you. The amount of love you have for us and others is endless. Thank you for all the joy you bring to my life Ellaina. I love an adore you forever and for always!
My Sweet Braden! Your giggle makes my heart smile with joy. You have such a pureness about you that is ready to love everyone. It is so unique and probably my favorite thing about you. I say probably because there are so many things I love about you too. I love the way you are always kissing and hugging us. You are so sweet and loving. I am thankful everyday I get to spend with you and love counting your kisses. You are so much more wise and sensitive then your years. At times, I swear I can actually see you thinking about something before you even say it out loud. I adore the way you love with your entire heart and enjoy making others feel good. It is a rare quality and it comes so naturally to you. You are always so light hearted and fun loving. Secretly I am always laughing at your “bathroom” talk. Even though the Mommy in me has to stop you :-) I have never known a kid who thinks wiggling his butt is so funny. I adore you so much Braden. I love you always and forever!
My Little Grahamers! Eighteen months already. I have a lot to write. I have been so busy taking in all the precious moments with you and the family, that I have forgotten to document some of my favorites. This time has gone by way too fast, especially now with your fun personality. You have a humor about you that is always making me laugh, and you love making people laugh. Anytime you have an audience, you beam and shine. I don’t know who you think is funnier, your sister and brother or yourself. You are always cracking yourself up.There are so many games you love to play, but your favorite seems to be being chased. Whether it is running around the main level with any of us saying“gonna getcha”, or you sneaking on the stairs waiting to catch our attention. It is so much fun. Your Daddy and I now pretend we don’t know your doing it, just to hear you giggle when we catch you. Your first word was “mama”, which made me so happy. Daddy and I were both trying to get it to be our names. Now you are putting so many sounds to words. Everything is called “this” to you. I guess I need to stop saying “Do you want this?” You have a mouth full of teeth and seem to have your sister’s appetite. Anytime you can get your hands on food, you are there trying. Except meats, you are not much of a meat eater. We have to have brown rice with almost every meal, so we can shred the meat and disguise it in the rice. Your favorite food is definitely Mac n’cheese, like your sister. I cannot feed you fast enough when there is Mac n’ cheese in front of you. When you get your hands on it first, it is quite humorous. Sometimes you even put the bowl up to your mouth like a puppy, especially if we giggle the first time. I don’t know how I got lucky enough to have three cuddle bugs. You LOVE cuddling and being kissed on. Last night, I sat on the glider with you and just kept singing one song after another. You were just looking up at me smiling the entire time. Makes it hard to ever put you down. My lips seem to always have a magnetic pull to your chubby cheeks. Especially when I hit that tickle spot under your chin. Actually, you have a bunch of tickle spots. I love tickling the inside of your thighs when I change your diaper. Even now, your thighs are so big they jiggle while I am tickling them. Ellaina and Braden love to get their lips on your belly. You get a big belly laugh when they blow on your tummy. It’s probably why they do it every time you get out of the bath. I think one of your favorite things, is putting the kids to bed with us at night. You run from room to room playing and giggling. You like to try to climb into both Ellaina and Braden’s beds with them an relax. You are your happiest when you are surrounded by your siblings, Daddy and I. That’s when you really light up. Regardless of who you are by, you always make me light up. I love and adore you so much Graham. This will be the first of many more posts to catch up on the little boy you have become. Thank you for blessing my life everyday!
Saturday, March 2, 2013
A few weeks ago my MOPS (Mother of Preschoolers) group leader asked me if I would be willing to share my testimonial with the group at a steering committee meeting. A testimonial? It is something I have asked myself many times, but I have never sat down and really wrote mine. No one has ever asked me. In my belief, everything happens for a reason. The sheer fact that Michelle asked me to share mine, meant it is time for me to write mine. I have been very blessed to know God’s loves my entire life, what is a testimonial when that is the case? I sat down at my laptop to find out. What happened next was astounding. I just started typing. The words and sentences came with such ease. It was definitely a God thing. All of a sudden I was done. I read it with disbelief of what I wrote. It was so honest and something I had never thought about. I only corrected two words in the entire two pages. I want to share my testimonial with my kids. God willingly, they will always know of God’s love, and hopefully they will be blessed to find a partner who makes that love more visible every day.
“When Michelle asked me to give my testimony, I didn’t really know where to begin. I have had a very blessed life. Blessed with faith, blessed with incredible love, blessed with amazing people and blessed with heartbreak. Yes, blessed with heartbreak. It is through the trials in my life that I have learned to really trust in God and His plan.
As a child, we were surrounded with the knowledge of God and His love for us. We grew up as strong Catholics, went to church every Sunday, religion studies once a week and talked about God often. I sang in children’s choir and later youth choir. We had religious role models in our parents and both sets of Grandparents. My brother, sister and I grew up knowing we were loved. We didn’t always have a lot of money, but more love than you could dream for. My parents were and still are incredibly supportive. My mom always sat back and let me be me. She would only interject her concerns if a choice was becoming unhealthy or could lead to becoming unhealthy. Even then, she had a way of making it seem like it was your choice…magical. I went through all the sacraments with my family’s support. I even fought to be the first girl alter server in Minnesota. My parents stood with me and supported my endeavor. When I was a Freshman in high school, I was finally old enough to go on the church youth trip to the Boundary Waters. It is a remote national park reserve that boarders Minnesota and Canada. It is breathtaking and you can’t help but feel close to God there. That was the first time I had been truly surrounded by so many young believers. It was the most amazing time of my life. Until my first date with my husband.
I have heard of seeing God’s love in people, and I have many times in my life. But never like this. It wasn’t even something we spoke about, but when I am with to my husband I feel closer to God. The love we have and the path God used to bring us to each other was remarkable. It brought a new kind of faith to me, and completely changed the way I live my life.
Looking back on it, like most teenagers, there were many paths I took. I feel I tried to walk the path I thought God put out for me, but sometimes life happened and I’d come to a fork in the road. Some were growing experiences and one particular relationship left me quite broken mentally and once physically. I finally came out of it a strong more independent young women, but it impacted my trust in people particularly boys/men. When Brad came into my life, I wasn’t looking for someone. My senior year was wrapping up and I was getting excited for college. God had actually put Brad and I on the same path twice in our earlier years, but looking back I know it was his timing that brought us together this time. Brad had dealt with a lot more hardship in his life than most, or at least more than the people I had known. Looking at him and talking with him, you would never know. When God finally gave me the chance to get to know him, on that first date, there was an instant mutual love and respect. I feel those chance meetings we had were God’s way to let us see one another and be ready for what was to come. The greatest love He can bestow on two people. All our trials and journeys thus far were just God’s way of bringing us together. The first person I could pour my soul to and be the total honest me with no walls or masks…or humor. Knowing how important Brad’s mom was to him, I feel God was even great enough to let it happen early enough in our lives that I had an opportunity to meet and fall in love with Brad’s mom before her passing.
When I said earlier that Brad’s love changed the way I live my life, I truly mean it. Everything good and bad in my life is a blessing. It leads us to the path that God has planned for us. I don’t know if I would have realized that at such a young age, if not for the love God gave Brad and I. Had Brad’s mom not been too sick to care for Brad and he had not moved to live with his dad in Minnesota, our paths may never had crossed. Had I not given a piece of my heart to the wrong person once, I would not have known to hang on to it so tight and save it for true knee buckling love.
This way of thinking. The way God has presented it to me has since helped me through everything. The good times and even some heart break. Lose of babies, lose of loved ones, any kind of struggle. I know and trust prayer. I pray through it and get strength from God and knowing that somewhere down the road I will see what His plan is. I take great comfort in that, even when the sky’s are grey. I live my life like an open book. Always willing to share my trials and triumphs, knowing God gave them to me for a reason. Whether it is to be empathetic to someone’s situation or just a shoulder to cry on. It is the journey He has taken me on thus far and through it all He has been amazing!”
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Those are the words Braden said in his ridiculously loud voice as we entered the family restroom immediately after a gentlemen was leaving. I don’t really know if he was even past Braden yet, when Braden so boisterously shared that bit of information with me. I was trying my hardest not to laugh. One because I didn't want him to keep saying it, and two because I didn't want to breath to deep and fall over from the horrible smell. I can’t even write about this without laughing out loud. The entire bathroom break, Braden kept talking about how bad the bathroom smelt. As he held the door for me to push the stroller out he said, “Let’s get out of this stinky place fast”.
Afterwards, we went into the nursing room so I could feed Graham. As we left the nursing room and walked past the family bathroom again, he yelled “Hey Mommy, here is that stinky bathroom again!” I started to laugh this time…there is only so much I can take before I break. Unfortunately, we turn the corner and the guy that was in the bathroom before us was right there. Thankfully Braden didn’t connect the dots. I could only imagine what he would have said had he known that was the person that made the bathroom stinky :)
Sunday, April 8, 2012
I had the great privilege of taking Ellaina and Braden to Disney’s Princesses on ice. It was such a wonderful time! We bought the tickets through my friend’s daughter’s girl scout troop, so the seats were in a nice place. I don’t know how Disney does it, but it was truly magical! They went through the stories of Rapunzel, Cinderella and Tiana. I thought Rapunzel was going to be my favorite, but both Ellaina and I left excited most about Tiana from The Princess and the Frog.
It was originally supposed to be a girls night with just Ellaina and I, but they were able to get an extra ticket. I asked Ellaina if it would be OK for Braden to come as our Prince Charming? Her response was so cute. She said, “Yes, but he doesn't have a costume.” Then she recommended we go buy one :) I thought that was such a sweet response.
It was a great night with my two big kids! The entire first half they both sat on my lap eyes wide with excitement. It was truly magical!!
Friday, March 30, 2012
The kids had their Spring Sing at school. It was an opportunity to hear them sing a couple songs and see what they have been working on. We all had a wonderful time and were happy to see both Ellaina and Braden singing. They have been singing the songs around the house, but usually when they get in front of people they both get quiet. It is hard to believe how grown up they are getting. It is going so fast. Ellaina will be graduating Pre-K this year and then off to Kindergarten. Wow….kind of scary.
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Ellaina went to a friend’s birthday party and it was so girly and fun! The girls all got to pick out an outfit, get their hair, makeup and nails all done. Then they got to walk the run way. It was so fun seeing her and all the girls get divafied. She was a little shy, which was unusual. At home, she loves to sing and dance all around the house, and every day she is dressed up in a costume. I guess she gets a little shy when around other people. Then again, she sometimes gets shy like that during school activities too :)
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Graham is already five months old. He is so much fun and such a happy little guy! I love this age, when their personality really starts to show. He is incredibly easy going and thinks EVERYTHING his brother and sister does is hilarious. We are getting excited to start feeding this chunky monkey baby food. We have tried Gerber Puffs a couple times, but I don’t think they are his favorite. His bottom two teeth are all the way in now, and sharp. If he sneaks my finger in his mouth, it really hurts. He is still in the co-sleeper next to our bed. That will have to change soon, since he is almost sitting up on his own. It’s time to figure out a new sleeping arrangement :)
Saturday, March 17, 2012
We made it home safely! Couldn’t have asked for more :) The kids wore themselves out swimming at the hotel pool, so we all got a great night sleep! Could not be happier to be home in Daddy’s loving arms. It was along time to be apart, but we are so thankful to have made such fantastic memories in Minnesota!
Friday, March 16, 2012
Our trip to Minnesota was the BEST! The kids are at such a fun age and really enjoyed spending time with everyone too. Jason and the kids are living in my parent’s basement apartment , so the kids had a great time with their cousins and Uncle Jason. We were able to be up to celebrate Papa’s birthday, and take in a movie with Grandma. We have grown fond of our trips to the zoo with Papa. It has become a tradition, and this trip no exception. The weather was beautiful and we had a perfect day with Papa!